as they say shh

I just

Want to make you happy that’s all.

I know

That a lot of people look at me and think my life’s over or that I fucked my life up because of my pregnancy, but to be completely honest with you all, it saved me. Every time I have an ultrasound and I get to see my son the feeling I get is indescribable.
I never thought I’d be a mom at 18/19 but then again who plans it that way? My son is the best mistake I have ever made and i don’t care what the rest of you think about me because I’m a teenager and pregnant, I’m one of the few that are actually getting my shit together because of him, I want to be able to provide for him the best way I possibly can and I know it means working my ass off and going to college after I have him will be my toughest battle, but it’ll all be worth it because of him.
So go ahead and make your judgements about me, they don’t upset me or hurt me the least bit because it just proves how ignorant and stupid you all really are.
For the people who are genuinely happy for me and support me, thank you.

Wonderful.

I love being ignored while you’re with two girls I don’t fucking know, thanks babe.

I cant hate you.

Nothing compares,
No worries or cares,
Regrets and mistakes,
They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Its been a week now since we went our separate ways, we’ve said our fair share of hurtful, mean and hateful words to each other but I can’t hate you, as much as I may want to, I just can’t. You were such a big part of my life and for so long. This hasn’t been easy for me even though you think it has. It hurts me just as much as it does you, but now you don’t have to worry, now you don’t have to be paranoid. I wish things would have been different but everything happens for a reason, so i’ll think of this as a lesson. Something to learn from, something to look back on. We had some pretty great times together.
You know i’ll always be here for you, no matter what happens.

I love you.